I want to..

1. Go to a dreamy village up in the hills and paint.. about all the beautiful things I can see

2. Read and appreciate poetry..

3. Start a place where I can serve traditional filter kaapi-idli-dosa combo and improvised versions of the same to make things interesting

4. Watch beautiful movies and write about them

5. Keep a journal and write in it daily

6. Shop till I drop dead ;)

7. Trek to little known places

8. Start a play school and play with cute kids

9. Do whacky stuff like start a coffe shop, a lingerie store...

10. Do 'cool' Stuff like - be a professional blogger for example ;) wow!

11. Be the hostess on a travel show for travel&entertainment channel

12. Do a street play

13. Sing without a care

14. Learn atleast 10 more languages

15. Make a living out of doing something off-beat (yet to figure out what this should be..)

16. Live every moment like this were my last and end ever day feeling every moment was worth it

17. Spend a day in a dream place like hogwarts may be ;)

18. Go Skiing or bungee jumping

19. Learn to appreciate photography

20. Be a professional sculptor.. wow ;)

21. Be a fitness guru.. erm.. someday

22. Which would also mean step into a clothes store feeling, I can get into anything I want here :)

23. less greedy and put an end to this list :)

.. hazaron khwahishen aisi

Prayer

... its wierd I wanted to title this post as a 'prayer' for many reasons -

a. I haven't prayed in ages ( should talk about this sometime)

b. guess I am agnostic (again need to elaborate some day..)

c. this post is not about god or anything like that

anyways.. the last couple of weeks has been tough on me thanks to a lot of disturbing incidents with friends who let me down .. and I don't take it well most of the time. Yesterday was no different and I fretted and fumed and really felt bad. But as I cleaned my room and had my bath today morning, I started having this thought that it would be great if I could cleanse myself of these things as easily as cleaning my room or taking a bath. I wished I werent so petty at times and had the maturity to just not bother, bitch and gossip about the pettiness of my friends and people around me (ironically).. I wished I could be beyond these insignificant emotions... I wished I had more love and a littles less hatred in me.. I wished I had the power to be a better person by just thinking about it.. :)

Big ambitions.. :) i know!