a. I haven't prayed in ages ( should talk about this sometime)
b. guess I am agnostic (again need to elaborate some day..)
c. this post is not about god or anything like that
anyways.. the last couple of weeks has been tough on me thanks to a lot of disturbing incidents with friends who let me down .. and I don't take it well most of the time. Yesterday was no different and I fretted and fumed and really felt bad. But as I cleaned my room and had my bath today morning, I started having this thought that it would be great if I could cleanse myself of these things as easily as cleaning my room or taking a bath. I wished I werent so petty at times and had the maturity to just not bother, bitch and gossip about the pettiness of my friends and people around me (ironically).. I wished I could be beyond these insignificant emotions... I wished I had more love and a littles less hatred in me.. I wished I had the power to be a better person by just thinking about it.. :)
Big ambitions.. :) i know!
